Ready!... Set!... Go!...

We are crawling! Cam has been crawling for awhile and she's now getting really fast! I had to put my plants up and I'm cleaning the floors constantly since they are her new best friend these days!

So this is what happens when your older cousin gets a hold of you! I was at my sister Tara's house and all of a sudden star divas Jay and Carter come walking down the stairs looking like this. I have never laughed so hard in my entire life!

Can I get a what what!

I have so many things I want to get posted. I just cannot find the time. However, I want to get our little weekend adventure posted while it is fresh in my mind. Last week Carter went to stay at his Grandma Kidman's house for 4 nights and 5 days! He did great...I on the other hand resorted to tears more than once. On Sunday we met Jason's parents half way to pick Carter up then we headed straight to Park City to use a "free" 2 night stay we had gotten from attending a salespitch thing over a year ago. I'm glad we were finally able to use it but I will NEVER be doing that again. It was such a hassle and I am not so fond of the company now. Anyhow, let me brief you on our great adventure!

Our hotel was.....well.....let's just call it special. It was one of those where I kept shoes on at all times and the thought of letting Cambri's precious little baby skin come remotely close to the carpet was horrifying. Yes it was that kind of place. I was afraid of going out of the room by myself. The entire thing was deserted. I never saw one actual human being that worked there. After much frustrated research I discovered the way to check out was to drop your key in this creepy box labeled "drop key here". I thought for sure the elevator was going to plummet me to my death everytime I stepped inside, even though it was the distance of about 4 stairs which I never did discover where any stairs were. The first night I saw a bug on the wall by the bed (and when I say bed I mean a mattress on a metal frame from the DI with a stiff sheet and a blanket that I refused to touch...(and when I say bug I mean the scariest bug on the planet and a huge personal fear I will never overcome...an EARWIG). I'm certain its the same hotel they feature in all the horror films. I did not obtain any pictures of this special place but if you would like a referral I would be glad to put in a good word to ...well...there is no evidence of actual people there, so you are out of luck! Oh and Jason thought the hotel was great. ohhhh...the differences between husbands and wives. Sometimes we think Jason is "special" too. ;)

Regardless of our luxurious room and board we had a great time. A bit stressful with two little ones but still great. Carter had the time of his life. Jenny came to spend the afternoon with us Monday at the Alpine slide area. We got Carter an all day pass so he rode all the rides all day. I took him on the Alpine slide which brought back some serious memories for Jenny and I and he had a blast racing Jenny and cousin Blake down the track (we won!). Jason took him on the Coaster and he LOVED it. I'm so proud of him. He is growing up! Then later that day I batted my pretty eyes and pulled the "poor mom" card and the workers let me take Carter on the coaster again for free (a $20 value!!) Car and I spotted 2 moose and never put the brakes on once going down, it was awesome! Anyway Carter really loved it and it brought me to tears seeing his face light up with excitement...then also brought me to tears when he threw MAJOR fits when we had to leave. :)

Today we got up and headed to Heber where we boarded for the Heber Valley Train! What an experience! If you haven't done it YOU SHOULD! Anyone who knows Carter knows how obsessed he is with Trains right now. He will play with trains all day and all night. They go to bed with him and wake up with him. Lately he has turned all his cars into trains by making Jason hook them all together using "duck tape"....also known as zip ties, Jason's duck tape, everything at our house is held together by zip ties. We bought him a little train before we boarded and he still has not put it down. He absolutely loved getting on a real train. In the middle of the ride the train stops and these outlaws come riding up to the train on horses shooting their guns and act like they are robbing it. It was so cool. Carter was a bit confused but the guy gave him a gold chocolate nugget so he was ok with it. He keeps saying he wants to go on the train again. It was a great experience.

It feels like we were gone forever and I am so so so happy to be back home with everyone sleeping AWAY from me. Everyone in their own rooms and own beds where they should be and where I am left to sleep in peace. :) 1 adult (me) and 3 children (including Jason) in one tiny creepy hotel room = no fun or sleep for me :0 The first night I literally flew out of bed a total of at least 8 x thinking Carter was going to fall off the couch he was sleeping on. Well here are lots of pictures from our fun family vacation!

Explanation: the title of this post is Carter's new catch phrase Jason taught him while yelling it down the coaster. It is hiliarious and he's such a polite boy he says "can I get a what what please" ha ha ha

Catching up...

I have a few posts to catch up on. Because this blog has taken the place of my scrapbooking and journaling for the moment I want to catch up on a few big and small events that have taken place in the last few months. More to come later...because now I'm off to bed. :)

Cambri is my absolute angel. She makes me so happy! She was a true blessing in my life. She has the happiest little spirit. She hardly ever cries, she goes to sleep like an angle, she just seems to love life and love all of us! Every single day I look at her and cannot believe she is mine! I can't believe I have my little girl. I am so excited and blessed to be her mom and hopefully her best friend someday like my mom is to me. You are my angel Cam!

Look at my TONGUE!

Cam has found her tongue! She is sticking it out all the time. It's hilarious' Sweet girl~

PIG TAILS!!

I know I am Crazy! But oh my gosh I can't believe I have a little girl that I get to doll all up and do her hair! Wait till she really gets some hair...the possibilities are endless!

Cambri's Blessing Day

Cambri's blessing day was wonderful! She was a perfect angle, even though she was coming down with RSV (which we did not know) She ended up in the hospital just a few days later. The day was great with lots of friends and family. Her grandma Kidman bought her a gorgeous blessing dress and mom bought her a special bracelet. She had white beautiful bloomers made special just for her with her initials on them. The most precious thing that accompanied her on her blessing day was the beautiful white blessing blanket that Grandma Chris made for Carter that got passed down for her blessing day. We all felt her presence and love with us so strongly that day. As I sat listening to the blessing I felt the warmth of my mom's around me and I know without a doubt she was there with me and my baby girl. Cambri's daddy gave her the most beautiful blessing. Both mommy and daddy both bore their testimonies, which have grown with the presence of our little girl in our l ives! We love you soooo much Cambri!

Thoughts

Lately I cannot stop thinking about my mom. It has been awhile since I have written about her. I choose not to go there most the time. It is too hard and easier not to. If I open the wound...it gushes. But I just cannot get her off my mind. So I opened the wound tonight. My wonderful neighbor girls Kirrah and Ashley are taking off on a little vacation and heading to St. George and staying at my dad's house for a couple days. As I was telling them all the "hot spots" to hit in St. George I couldn't help but think of all the places mom and I would go and how many memories St. George holds for my family. We have been going there for so long. So I started telling the girls about my mom. Showing them pictures. Talking about her. Showing them some of my most precious possessions that I hold so sacred. I have a drawer that is filled with things from my mom, things from the funeral, wonderful things, and really hard things to face, things I choose not to face. I never ever open that drawer and tonight I just wanted to share a piece of myself and my mom with these great girls. Sometimes I just want to be surrounded with anything that is her. Nobody around me knows who my mom is and what she means to me. I want to shout it from the rooftops! I want to talk about her...I want to remember her...I want everyone to know her. Just a couple nights ago fairly late I picked up the phone without even thinking and called my dad. We sobbed together on the phone wondering how our life has ended up in this place. The reality of mom being gone and leaving us needing her. My dad told me how much he and my mom love me. Parents are irreplaceable. I can't believe I somehow ended up with the amazing parents I have. Helps me to be a better mother. My dad is a great man and will be blessed for the things he has endured in this life. My head hurts, my heart aches, my body trembles with the love, respect and longing for my mom. I cannot wait for the day I can rest from those feelings and she can wrap her arms around me once again.

The many many days with that green thing!

Just want to let everyone know we did it! We are officially binkie free! I went away to girls camp and I came back and he hasn't even asked for it since (with one exception, but quickly remembered the stupid binkie was broken). I almost cried the first time I put him down and he didn't ask for it! I cannot believe I did it. I actually did it! I am absolutely over the stars proud of myself and Carter. I don't think anybody understands the degree of this accomplishment. HUGE! I must say there is a part of me that misses that green thing, it got us through many a tough days...but I am glad we conquered it. Now onto potty training and getting little miss to sleep through the night. Does it ever end...

Signing out a very happy mom!

DETOX Day 2

No Fun. I am having absolute regrets about this whole binkie thing! What in the world was I thinking. What's wrong with binkies anyhow. Yesterday was a cake walk compared to today. Carter has slapped me in the face, thrown his water cup at me, cried in his bed for an hour when it was time for his nap, and never did go to sleep (and I needed that nap desperately today!) However, I must say there is some good news in this posting. I am leaving! Right now. In minutes. I am headed up to girls camp for a couple days with baby Cam. All I have to say is good luck Jason!

Signing out...Detox Day 2

Heartbreak

I am absolutely heartbroken. We made it through the day and did really well. We even made it through our nap with no binkie. Carter really seemed to understand that his binkies have gotten old. He is extremely sad. Honestly his little face makes ME want to burst into tears. Bedtime tonight has not gone so smooth. He has been crying and whimpering for the last 30 minutes. I have gone in a few times to comfort him, he just says "I want my bibi". It's so sad. If Jason hadn't held me back I would have given him one! I finally sang him some songs that seemed to take his mind off it. I feel like a horrible mom who has just taken away his most prized possession. What mother does that!! Just need to remember I know whats best...or do I...what's the big deal about a binkie...why CAN'T he have one still??? Signing out not happy....DETOX DAY 1

Pictured: Carter looking for a "bibi" stragler anywhere he can think to look...

Binkie DETOX Day 1

Here we go...Carter would not stop asking for his binkie this morning and I am getting so sick of it. So I just did it! Ahh...what did I just do. I got some good advice from a friend in my ward so I think I can do it. We'll see.

So here we go Detox Day 1:


Oh my gosh, this is the saddest face I have ever seen. I want to run and give him a binkie so bad! I think this may be more of a detox for mommy!

Project 'get rid of binkie'....not going well...

Precious Moments

These are two of the most important people in my life. I love them more than words can describe. Since I lost my mom and my sweet grandparents lost their daughter our relationship has grown even closer than it was. My grandma has picked up many broken pieces for us and given us love and support. Whenever I have an urge to call my mom and tell her something cute the kids did or when I have questions about cooking or laundry, I call my grandma and I know she truly cares! My grandpa is there to keep us laughing! I love you both so much!

Eating My Toes

A Day of Flowers at Thanksgiving Point

A kiss for you...













And one for you!


























'Good Friends'





























A GOOD DAY WITH GOOD FRIENDS

Our Monkey

It hurts to be beautiful!

BAD HAIR DAY