Monday, September 17, 2007


There are not many people that know who their guardian angel is...I do. After my mom left this earthly life and moved on to that place we call heaven, my precious 6 year old nephew said "Wow, cool I never knew anyone in heaven"....I often think of this amazing phrase that came from my little nephew Caden. I often wonder... why can't I have that same simple attitude and understanding. Just last week my other 4 year old nephew was talking to my sister as she was crying and having a hard time. She told her 4 year old son... "Nicky I miss grandma"... and as calm and reassuring as a parent would say to their child this little boy said to his mom ..."It's ok, grandma is happy"... It amazes me the faith, hope, and love these little children possess. I think children know and understand things we do not and have forgotten as this thing we call life has taken its toll on us. It is a blessing to be surrounded by them and to be reminded of how simple this plan here on earth is. I try to remember the big picture and think of that day when I will see my mom's sweet face smiling at me and feel her warmth and arms around me once again. How I truly long and live for that day. My mom is everything I strive to be, everything I hope to be, and everything I am determined to become. Looking back I realize how lucky I was to have her not only in my life but as my mother. She taught me, she molded me. What a great blessing she was to me. I can only hope I was a small fraction to her of what she was to me. I wish I could tell her... I think about her constantly and her example reminates in my mind every second of every day. I am grateful for her and everything she gave me in the short time I had her. My mom gave me, in a brief period of time, what takes others an eternity to give and teach their children. She had become all she needed to become here on this earth and was ready to move on. Although I sometimes wish she could have been less perfect than she was so she could still be here with me but I try to understand the big picture and remember like my little nephew said that she is happy. I have learned so much in the past 2 years. More than I had bargained for that is for sure and am still working on being grateful for the trials that overtook my family the last year. But I learned how much I love my family. I learned how much I love my parents. I learned how much I love my siblings. There is not one day that goes by that I don't tell them how much I love and cherish each one of them. Family is what keeps us going here on this earth and how grateful I am for the eternity of them! I love you mom, with all of my heart and more!

My Family of Three

This is my little family of three. Jason and I just celebrated our 4th wedding anniversary. I can't believe I have been married four years and at the same time I can't believe it hasn't been an eternity! It's hard to remember not being married to my wonderful husband that I am so blessed to have in my life. We welcomed our son Carter Jai Kidman into our family on October 25th 2006. He now literally rules the house! We were lucky to move into a beautiful home 3 1/2 years ago in West Jordan and will probably remain for awhile longer. I love my family!

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Here I go...!

Well my sister Jenny started a blog and is always telling me how fun and therapeutic it is so she talked me into doing one myself!....SO here I go!