Tuesday, March 31, 2009

A Post just for Grandma and Grandpa!

Grandma we wanted to show off our first pony tail!!! And brag because we have slept all the way through the night for 5 nights in a row and counting!...thanks to our thumb! Heaven bless that little thumb! We love you Great Grandma and Grandpa! Thank you for always loving us...even you gramps!!! Hope you can feel our love coming your way today' xox

Tuesday, March 24, 2009


Some people just don't get it and need a little help...JASON!

It's Official...

...We have a thumb sucker! My Grandma called it from the very beginning. Good bye binkies, hello thumb! I keep joking that Cambri will get rid of her binkies before Carter does, I didn't think it would actually happen. But this little one takes after her dad "a fellow thumb sucker"...whose thumb is deformed to this day from sucking it!

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Getting Big!

We are 3 months old today! Happy St. Patricks Day!

Monday, March 16, 2009

Sleepy Baby

I have decided I am going to try to post more day to day things that happen to us Kidmans! I want my kids to be able to look back and know the funny things they did. So here we go...

This morning Cambri was an angel. She's actually always an angel. She's just the happiest little baby. Anyway she was on the floor gooing and gaaing, I went over and started talking to her and she was smiling at me and we were having a great time and honestly no joke not 3 seconds later she was dead asleep! She just closed her eyes and was gone! I only wish sleeping was that easy!

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Another Year

How can it be another year. How could a whole year have passed again without my mom. Two years ago today she left. I cannot believe it. I am waiting for this shocking feeling to go away. It comes and goes. I still don't understand when and how it will get better. I have been dreading this date. Wondering what to do, where to go, how to act. Do I give in and just cry all day...do I not think about it? I mean I hate this day with every part of my being. Hate it. I don't want to celebrate this day. I don't want to remember this day. I want this date to drop off the calendar. I know its just another day...but it is the day she left for good. It is the last day I got to be with her and hold her hand. I just hate it. After a lot of thought I decided to just not think about it today, I think that is the advice my mom would give me, so I spent a few hours with my sisters which is always fun and then my sweet husband took the day off to just be with me. He took us to the dinosaur museum which Carter absolutely loved and it made me happy seeing him play. Then he took us out to dinner. It was a good day. Being with my family is my favorite thing. Now as I am getting ready to go to bed I can't help but think about my mom. I love her so much and hope that everyone that still has their mom here with them doesn't take a moment of it for granted. You never know what life will bring you. Your life can be turned upside down in a matter of seconds. Mine was. I am grateful for those people I still do have in my life. I love my kids and my husband and would not still be here if it weren't for them. I decided to post this picture of my mom and my sweet baby boy Carter. She only got to know Carter here on earth for 4 months of his life. And I will cherish every second of those 4 months I was able to see her special love for him and the 25 years I got to spend with her by my side. I miss you more than I can bear mom. I love you. ~Shanny Babe~

Sunday, March 8, 2009

When it Rains it Pours...

Our little Angel Cambri was admitted to Primary Chidren's Hospital last Wednesday with RSV. She was so sick. We took her to their emergency room late Monday night where they did some tests and she tested positive for RSV. We finally got back home about 4 am, hoping she wouldn't get to much worse but she did. Tuesday night we were back in an emergency room in Orem to get her suctioned out, that night she cried all night long. Wednesday we took her into our pediatrician and he sent us straight to Primarys again. She looked awful and was dehydrated, not eating...she looked so sick. We spent all day in the ER that day. They did more tests on her...poking her, needles, tubes. I've never been so scared, I just wanted to take it all away so she wouldn't have to do it. The doctor came in and told us they wanted to doa spinal tap because she is so little they needed to rule out menangitis and any other sort of infection. I cried and cried and then left the room while Jason stayed with her to get the spinal tap. My poor little baby. I love her so much. She was admitted to the hospital and we stayed there for a hard two days and two nights. We had great nurses that took good care of us and I am so grateful to be home with my healthy happy baby! I am grateful I got to walk out of that hospital with a healthy baby cause I know many people don't get that. Cambri I love you so much. My love grew 1000x for you this week and will just keep growing! We are so glad to have you back home and getting better.