It has been one year since my mom left us. I want to pay tribute to my family for surviving the last year. It has been a hard one and I think the years to come will continue to be hard for awhile. We have survived and I know my mom is very proud of us. I miss her so much and I can't even let my mind remember that I have not seen or talked to my mom in over a year. How could that be? How are we supposed to be okay with that. How can I go from talking and being with her everyday to not at all.
Recently, a little 13 year old girl in our Sunday School class at church passed away. Randi Jo. What a sweet, precious girl she was. As I attended all of the events and offered my support to her family I reflected on my experience of losing my mom. It's easy to try to avoid those feelings. I feel if I don't open the wound then it won't hurt so bad. The busier I stay, the less it hurts. But sometimes the wound is forced to be opened and felt, which is an important part in healing. Everytime I look at a picture of her it makes me smile! She is amazing. I long for the day when I get to be with her again! I love you mom.
Thank you to all of you who supported me this last year. And especially to those who didn't stop calling, or emailing, or sending me special things to help me through. A special thanks to Ashley for the beautiful flowers sent on the year anniversary. It all helps me so much
3 comments:
We all love your mom so much too. I have some special memories of going to visit her. You are all so strong and I am proud of you, Tara, Jenny and Casey. We love you. If you ever need anything we will be here.
Is the girl on the top left your sister? I swear I know her somehow, it's kind of crazy.
We love and miss her too. You all are so much stronger than I could ever be. We love you guys! How are you liking your house, ward, neighborhood? Was that little girl in your new ward because Addox had a girl at his school pass away from an illness. I was just wondering if it might the same girl.
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